I do not want my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me to kill myself. I thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I am right. I am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I hope that someone finds this post and I hope that my parents know that I f****d up not them. The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or those who have crossed my path. I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every new day. I have a job but I'm always broke and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that's about it. You have all touched my life in one way or another, especially those whom I call family.
I have reached out for help so many times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did, that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am has only brought myself and others pain.
My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did.
I hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Eventually as many as 1,500 signed on to see the desperate act - with some urging him to hurry up, apparently believing it a hoax.
The boy's video footage only ended when police broke into his home near Miami.
There were 211 missing people reported in the District in January; 190 of them eventually were found unharmed.